My future… there are so many things that are undecided about my future.
I used to know exactly what I wanted out of life. I had high detailed plans in my head from the time that I was a little girl. I thought that I knew everything that there was to know and had no problem telling people. I always thought that it was my calling to be a mother.
From the time I was 11 to 16 years old, I spent a lot of time babysitting. I watched most of my teachers’ kids as well as a lot of the children of local RCMP officers. I knew that I had to stay out of trouble if I wanted to keep my cash flow going. Kids became a bit of my forte.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love kids and would be happy to be a mom one day, but the older I get the more I realize how much joy I get from other things. Just because something isn’t my strong suit doesn’t mean that I cannot enjoy doing it or getting better at it. For instance, at work I know that I have plenty to learn but I love my job and getting to learn all these things. I jump up from my desk if I hear an interesting scenario going on so that I can learn more about it and how it gets resolved.
Life can be pretty exciting if you don’t plan too much of it. Who knows where life will take me. It is kind of enthralling not knowing!