I had my first appointment with the neurologist yesterday. She was very kind and listened to everything that I had to say. She asked quite a few clarifying questions too, so I know that she really heard me.

We discussed about what is going on, how long it’s been happening for and a bunch of others things. She requested that I track a number of things over the next 4 weeks while continuing to take some newer medications. Then if it is safe to do so, I will be going in for some tests.

She indicated that there may be a number of things that might be able to help and she is optimistic that if we treat the headaches and migraines that the memory loss will likely improve. That by tracking information for the next 4 weeks will help her to assess which next step will be the best fit for me.

I talked to her about quality of life and my fear that if this continues to get worse that life will be difficult. She said that she understood my anxiety around that but believes that with the right treatment that things could be seemingly normal for me again.

I can’t even tell you how I felt when she told me that. It was something similar to that saying about a weight being lifted from your shoulders. At this point I still don’t have real answers but I am filled with optimism that she can help me. I am filled with hope that there is light at the end of this tunnel. Four weeks from now I could be on an upward path to better days instead of wondering when the spiral will stop. To me, that is a nice thought.

K.